痛苦地

My case was indeed deplorable, for I was left perfectly friendless and helpless, and the loss my husband had sustained had reduced his circumstances so low, that though indeed I was not in debt, yet I could easily foresee that what was left would not support me long; that while it wasted daily for subsistence, I had no way to increase it one shilling, so that it would be soon all spent, and then I saw nothing before me but the utmost distress; and this represented itself so lively to my thoughts, that it seemed as if it was come, before it was really very near; also my very apprehensions doubled the misery, for I fancied every sixpence that I paid for a loaf of bread was the last that I had in the world, and that tomorrow I was to fast, and be starved to death.

我的情况的确是可怜的，因为我没有一个朋友，得不到一点帮助，我丈夫由于受到这次损失已经穷到这种地步，即使我还没有欠债，然而我却很容易地看出剩下来的钱是不能维持我多久的；这笔钱一天天地花去，很快就会花光了，那时除了极端的困苦之外，我看不见别的前途；这种未来的幻景清清楚楚地呈现在我的眼前，好像已经来临了，虽然实际上这个可怕的结局还没有真的来临。同时为的恐惧又加深了我的痛苦，因为我觉得我每买一块面包所花的六便士都是我在世界上唯一的财产，明天我就要没饭吃了，饿死了。

But my case was indeed deplorable, for I was left perfectly friendless and helpless, and the loss my husband had sustained had reduced his circumstances so low, that though indeed I was not in debt, yet I could easily foresee that what was left would not support me long; that while it wasted daily for subsistence, I had no way to increase it one shilling, so that it would be soon all spent, and then I saw nothing before me but the utmost distress; and this represented itself so lively to my thoughts, that it seemed as if it was come, before it was really very near; also my very apprehensions doubled the misery, for I fancied every sixpence that I paid for a loaf of bread was the last that I had in the world, and that to-morrow I was to fast, and be starved to death.

Daniel Defoe， Moll Flanders我的情况的确是可怜的，因为我没有一个朋友，得不到一点帮助，我丈夫由于受到这次损失已经穷到这种地步，即使我还没有欠债，然而我却很容易地看出剩下来的钱是不能维持我多久的；这笔钱一天天地花去，很快就花光了，那时除了极端的困苦之外，我看不见别的前途；这种未来的幻景清清楚楚地呈现在我的眼前，好像已经来临了，虽然实际上这个可怕的结局还没有真的来临。同时我的恐惧又加深了我的痛苦，因为我觉得我每买一块面包所花的六便士都是我在世界上唯一的财产，明天我就要没饭吃，饿死了。

Some wounds already convalesced the human who was injured all to forget the wound was at But this person all clearly records that wound to palpitate the pain The growth originally should be the broken cocoon pain Actually in time redundant and caressing lovingly in broken bits Turned the chaos existence feeling recollection to live on representative is inferior!

回忆就代表活得不如过去！有些创伤已经康复了被伤害忘记的所有的人创伤在但这个人全部清楚地记录那个创伤跳动痛苦成长应该最初是残破的茧痛苦实际上及时重复和爱恋爱抚在残破的位的在代表转动混乱存在感觉往事居住下等！

When taken personally,"my pain" can easily lead to burdensome feelings of responsibility and entanglement. When we see it as "the pain," it tends to be easier for us to remain disentangled and lighter.

比如说，当我们很在意自己而执取为&我的痛苦&的时候，很容易会引生责任和束缚等不必要的感受，而当我们只是单纯地视之为&痛苦&的时候，就比较容易保持轻松与解脱。

I wish I could some day live by the sea in a thatched cottage of my own so that I could all day listen to the soft breeze and the sea communicating with each other in sweet whispers and watch the rolling waves kissing the beach.

我爱海，我愿意将来有那么一天，筑两间茅屋在海滨，整天听柔风和海涛蜜语，看海水吻着海滩；如果那时我还有痛苦的话，其实，我知道，痛苦会永远地跟随着我的。

I love the sea. I wish I could some day live by the sea in a thatched cottage of my own so that I could all day listen to the soft breeze and the sea communicating with each other in sweet whispers and watch the rolling waves kissing the beach. If I should then have great sufferings as a matter of fact, I

我爱海，我愿意将来有那么一天，筑两间茅屋在海滨，整天听柔风和海涛蜜语，看海水吻着海滩；如果那时我还有痛苦的话，其实，我知道，痛苦会永远地跟随着我的。

The students begins to develop a mind that hardens itself when pain arises. It is only natural that this happens as it take a lot of courage and fortitude to watch pain in this way. A type of aversion is naturally developed at that time, and this hardening of mind is not being noticed as anicca, dukkha, anatta.

学生们在痛苦生起时会生起一种紧绷僵化的状态，因为当我们以强大的勇气和毅力如此观察痛苦时，是很自然会发生这种现象的，而此时，也会自然地生起一种瞋恨心，而这样紧绷僵化的心是不会发现到无常、苦、无我的真相的。

I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.

我只想知道当痛苦与我们同在的时候，你是否能够泰然自若、不闪不避地面对它，无论这痛苦是我的抑或是你自己的。

He took all his pain and what was left of his strength and his long gone pride and he put it against the fish's agony and the fish came over onto his side and swam gently on his side, his bill almost touching the planking of the skiff and started to pass the boat, long, deep, wide, silver and barred with purple and interminable in the water.

他忍住所有痛苦，使尽仅存的力量和长久来已消磨殆尽的骄傲，来和这条鱼的痛苦相互抗衡，鱼终于被他拉近船边，慢慢游向他身边，鱼的尖嘴几乎碰到船板。它开始靠着船边游，它的身影长长的、又深又宽，银色的身躯外裹着紫色的条纹，无止尽地在水中游动。

The third part is mainly about the female character Mary. Comparing to the passive, dissimilated women talked about in The Iceman Cometh, Mary realized the agony suffering from self-lost vaguely. But she is too weak to accept the self-lost, so she pulled herself out of the man's world by taking drugging and looking back past happy times.

第三部分着重分析《长日入夜行》中的玛丽形象，与前一剧中完全出于被动、物化的女性形象不同，玛丽已朦胧地意识到自我的迷失的痛苦，但她无法面对这种痛苦，于是她通过吸毒，回忆等种种消极逃避的方式，企图实现对男性世界的彻底摆脱。

Plunder melds and run with this jewel!

掠夺melds和运行与此宝石！

My dream is to be a crazy growing tree and extend at the edge between the city and the forest.

此刻，也许正是在通往天国的路上，我体验着这白色的晕旋。