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An empty street, an enpty house, a hole in side my heart, i'm all alome, the rooms are getting smaller, i wonder how, i wonden why, i wonden where they are ,the days we hed, the songs we sang tog ether, oh yeah, and oh my love, im,holding on forever, reaching for a love that seems sofar, so i say a little prayer, and hope my dream s will take me there, where the skise are blue to see you once again my love,over seas and coast to coast, to find a placei

空荡的街景，空荡的房子，我的心破了一个洞。我不知道，我不知道原因何在？不知道他们在世界的哪个角落？那些共同度过的日子，一起唱的歌。我的爱。我永远在等待。得到一份爱看起来是如此的困难。所以我祷告。希望我的愿望将我带到一个有蓝天的地方。在那里我可以再次与你相遇。穿越海洋去找那样的地方。

I sleep, but my heart waketh: it is the voice of my beloved that knocketh, saying, Open to me, my sister, my love, my dove, my undefiled: for my head is filled with dew, and my locks with the drops of the night.

5：2 我身睡卧，我心却醒。这是我良人的声音。他敲门，说，我的妹子，我的佳偶，我的鸽子，我的完全人，求你给我开门，因我的头满了露水，我的头发被夜露滴湿。

Rochester: I could not unlove him now, merely because I found that he had ceased to notice me- because I might pass hours in his presence, and he would never once turn his eyes in my direction- because I saw all his attentions appropriated by a great lady, who scorned to touch me with the hem of her robes as she passed; who, if ever her dark and imperious eye fell on me by chance, would withdraw it instantly as from an object too mean to merit observation.

如今我不可能不管他，仅仅因为发现他不再注意我了——仅仅因为我在他面前度过几小时，而他朝我瞟都不瞟一眼——仅仅因为我看到他的全部注意力被一位贵妇人所吸引，而这位贵妇路过我身边时连长袍的边都不屑碰我一下，阴沉专横的目光碰巧落在我身上时、会立即转移，仿佛我太卑微而不值一顾。

But the full sum of me Is sum of something, which, to term in gross, Is an unlesson'd girl, unschool'd, unpractised; Happy in this, she is not yet so old But she may learn; happier than this, She is not bred so dull but she can learn; Happiest of all is that her gentle spirit Commits itself to yours to be directed, As from her lord, her governor, her king.

我自己以及我所有的一切，现在都变成您的所有了；刚才我还拥有着这一座华丽的大厦，我的仆人都听从我的指挥，我是支配我自己的女王，可是就在现在，这屋子、这些仆人和这一个我，都是属于您的了，我的夫君。

But I turn to the ever present Jesus, as I walk up and down in my room, and say, Lord Jesus, I am alone, and yet not alone-Thou art with me, Thou art my Friend.

虽然在我这样衰老的日子，觉得非常孤单，但是当我在房中度来度去的时候，我看见我的主是一直与我同在的；我就对他说：主耶稣啊，我虽然孤单，仍不孤单——你与我同在，你是我的朋友。

I was spared the trouble of answering, for Bessie seemed in too great a hurry to listen to explanations; she hauled me to the washstand, inflicted a merciless, but happily brief scrub on my face and hands with soap, water, and a coarse towel; disciplined my head with a bristly brush, denuded me of my pinafore, and then hurrying me to the top of the stairs, bid me go down directly, as I was wanted in the breakfast-room.

贝茜似乎很匆忙，已等不及听我解释，省却了我回答的麻烦。她将我一把拖到洗脸架前，不由分说往我脸上、手上擦了肥皂，抹上水，用一块粗糙的毛巾一揩，虽然重手重脚，倒也干脆爽快。她又用一把粗毛刷子，把我的头清理了一番，脱下我的围涎，急急忙忙把我带到楼梯口，嘱我径直下楼去，说是早餐室有人找我。

I can't say exactly what it'll be, but I'm always changing, and I'll always be honest to myself.

雅：我不确定，我正在找，你知道，我的风格呀，生活，但是到现在我一直在找我自己，我害怕变动，但是从现在开始我说我在经营我自己的。。。

Deng: I want to add a point: my painting has continuity. I feel I enter into the role step by step, gradually posing myself on the position between peep and being peeped. The position is like the "sub-consciousness", a moment of trance. But I really never heard about this word… I am always painting myself, but I am afraid that it would become self-portrait. I don't like the others ask me,"why did you always paint youself?"

邓：我要补充一点，我的画有一种连续性，我觉得我是逐步进入角色的，逐步把自己摆在一个窥视与被窥视的位置上，这个位置的状态可能有点像你所说的那个"潜意识"，一种瞬间的恍惚，不过我真的没听过这个词……我一直都在画自己，但我很怕变成自画像，我不想别人问我：你老画自己干嘛。

Usually, when peole have nothing to do, they will think a lot, something like a day dream,and I'm also of them. I'm an ordinary people, a worldling. I spent a lot of time to dream, and it's blind and dull. I can not reconigze myself a little bit. This's not what I used to be- very healthy, happy, optimistic, and full of energy. I know that I cannot keep going like this. If I continue doing this, my life will have nowhere to run, and then, I will slowly fall into depression till the day I will be destroyed."No, no way." I warned myself again and again,"get the confident I used to have and try my best to live." Although it maybe in vain, I have to try , to change my situation, to live better, untill I can be a sunny guy again.

人在无事可做的时候，是很容易胡思乱想的，我也不例外，我也是凡人，更是个俗人，大把的时间里不断的胡思乱想着，盲目又无聊，我有点不认识我自己了，这已经不是曾经的那个健康、快乐、积极、充满活力的我了，我不能再继续这样了，在这样下去我的人生将变得无路可逃，我也终究会慢慢的消沉下去，直至毁灭，不能，绝对不能，一次次的告诫自己，要拿出曾经的勇气来努力的好好生活，即使再徒劳，也要作出最后的努力，改变现状，好好生活，直到做回曾经那个阳光的我！

LIII I have kissed this world with my eyes and my limbs; I have wrapt it within my heart in numberless folds; I have flooded its days and nights with thoughts till the world and my life have grown one,--and I love my life because I love the light of the sky so enwoven with me.

我已经用眼睛和双臂拥吻了这个世界；我已经把它一层又一层地包藏在我的内心里；我已经用思想淹没了它的白昼和夜晚，直至世界和我的生命合而为一。我爱我的生命，因为我爱与我织为一体的天上的光明。

For a big chunk of credit-card losses; the number of filings (and thus charge-off rates) would be rising again, whether

年美国个人破产法的一个改动使得破产登记急速下降，而后引起了信用卡大规模的亏损。

Eph. 4:23 And that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind

弗四23 而在你们心思的灵里得以更新