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"I try to block it out," he says."I try to anticipate about added things, like how advantageous I am that my own three accouchement survived. But their cries just accumulate advancing to me, and I'm bedeviled with answerability that I couldn't save added of them."

努力不想这些，说，努力想其他东西，例如我何等幸运，自己的三个孩子都幸存下来了但是哭声一直回响在耳边，为自己没能多救出些孩子而有一种负罪感。

Everyday besides have a meal to sleep even if get online, resemble of course I can give the door on the weekend, like to go out very much before me journey but time is closer now, hardly what sky goes out, bar also did not go, KTV gets collect to just fall to poll, the most place that goes possibly is cinema and odeum, also often a person goes, feel to be done from personal pretty laugh, nevertheless a desire wants to issue Sichuan namely now, because oneself aided financially a few children to read in a few years, this year Sichuan elementary school of a child there graduated quickly, I want to see him namely, but according to present condition for, do not know to be able to be met really give time to go for nothing.

天天除了吃饭睡觉就是上网，当然像周末我会出一下门，我以前很喜欢出门旅行但是现在时间比较紧，几乎没什么空出去，酒吧也不去了，KTV得凑到人头才去下，可能去的最多的地方就是电影院和音乐厅，也经常是一个人去的，觉得自己蛮搞笑的，不过现在有个愿望就是想去下四川，因为几年里自己资助了几个孩子读书，今年四川那边一个孩子小学就快毕业了，我就是想去看下他，可按照现在的状态来说，不知道会不会真会空出时间来过去了。

You want to weed out the people who are looking for too much money.

如果有人想耍花招，不说出期望值，我只会说'我有个职位空缺，我要知道是否有可能达成共识。'我不想浪费他们的时间，也不想浪费我的。

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over,wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new,never knowing where you're going,when you face a brand new day,it used to be that way,now i just close my eyes and say i just want to breathe again,learn to face the joy and pain,discover how to laugh a little,cry a little,live a little more,i just wanna face today,forget about the woes of esterday,maybe if i hope a little,try a little more,i'll breathe again starting out again is never easy,disappointments come and go but life still moves on,with a bit of luck,it's a brand new start,that might just work my way,no need to walk away,don't want to live on life replay,things will work out fine,if you can find the courage to look past the night, to see the reak of dawn

你是否想过一切结束是怎样的感受，想过要从新开始又是怎样的感觉，从不知道你住哪里，从你面对崭新的一天，过去曾经是这个样子，而现在我只是闭上我的眼睛说：我只不过想再呼吸一次，学习面对那份快乐和痛楚，探索怎样多去欢笑一点，多哭泣一点，多一点活出自我，我只想活在今天，遗忘昨天的悲伤，或许如果我多去期盼一点，多去尝试多一点，我就能够再次真正呼吸，从新再出发从来都不是件易事，失望来来去去而人生依然继续，拥有那么一点运气，就是个崭新的开始。那说不定就是适合我的方式，不需要逃避，不想活在过往的重复里，事情自然迎刃而解，只要你能找到度过今晚的勇气，就会看见明天破晓的曙光

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over, wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new, never knowing where you're going, when you face a brand new day, it used to be that way, now i just close my eyes and say *i just want to breathe again, learn to face the joy and pain, discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more, i just wanna face today, forget about the woes of yesterday, maybe if i hope a little, try a little more, i'll breathe again starting out again is never easy, disappointments come and go but life still moves on, with a bit of luck, it's a brand new start, that might just work my way, no need to walk away, don't want to live on life replay,*things will work out fine, if you can find the courage to look past the night, to see the reak of dawn

你是否想过一切结束是怎样的感受，想过要从新开始又是怎样的感觉从不知道你住哪里，从你面对崭新的一天，过去曾经是这个样子，而现在我只是闭上我的眼睛说：我只不过想再呼吸一次学习面对那份快乐和痛楚，探索怎样多去欢笑一点，多哭泣一点，多一点活出自我，我只想活在今天，遗忘昨天的悲伤或许如果我多去期盼一点，多去尝试多一点，我就能够再次真正呼吸，从新再出发从来都不是件易事失望来来去去而人生依然继续，拥有那麼一点运气，就是个崭新的开始那说不定就是适合我的方式，不需要逃避，不想活在过往的重复里，事情自然迎刃而解，只要你能找到度过今晚的勇气，就会看见明天破晓的曙光

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over,wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new,never knowing where you're going,when you face a brand new day,it used to be that way,now i just close my eyes and say i just want to breathe again,learn to face the joy and pain,discover how to laugh a little,cry a little,live a little more,i just wanna face today,forget about the woes of esterday,maybe if i hope a little,try a little more,i'll breathe again starting out again is never easy,disappointments come and go but life still moves on,with a bit of luck,it's a brand new start,that might just work my way,no need to walk away,don't want to live on life replay,things will work out fine,if you can find the courage to look past the night, to see the reak of dawn .

你是否想过一切结束是怎样的感受，想过要从新开始又是怎样的感觉，从不知道你住哪里，从你面对崭新的一天，过去曾经是这个样子，而现在我只是闭上我的眼睛说：我只不过想再呼吸一次，学习面对那份快乐和痛楚，探索怎样多去欢笑一点，多哭泣一点，多一点活出自我，我只想活在今天，遗忘昨天的悲伤，或许如果我多去期盼一点，多去尝试多一点，我就能够再次真正呼吸，从新再出发从来都不是件易事，失望来来去去而人生依然继续，拥有那麼一点运气，就是个崭新的开始。那说不定就是适合我的方式，不需要逃避，不想活在过往的重复里，事情自然迎刃而解，只要你能找到度过今晚的勇气，就会看见明天破晓的曙光

He thinking no harm agreed, and being in the head of the Boat set the Sails; and as I had the Helm I run she Boat out near a League farther, and then brought her too as if I would fish; when giving the Boy the Helm, I stept forward to where the Moor was, and making as if I stoopt for something behind him, I took him by Surprize with my Arm under his Twist, and tost him clear over-board into the Sea; he rise immediately, for he swam like a Cork, and call'd to me, begg'd to be taken in, told me he would go all over the World with me; he swam so strong after the oat that he would have reacht me very quickly, there being but little Wind; upon which I stept into the Cabbin and fetching one of the Fowling-pieces, I presented it at him, and told him, I had done him no hurt, and if he would be quiet I would do him none; but said I, you swim well enough to reach to the Shoar, and the Sea is calm, make the est of your Way to Shoar and I will do you no harm, but if you come near the Boat I'll shoot you thro' the Head; for I'm resolved to have my Liberty; so he turn'd himself about and swam for the Shoar, and I make no doubt but he reacht it with Ease, for he was an Excellent Swimmer.

他一想这样做也无妨，就同意了。他在船头，就张起了帆；我在船尾掌舵。就这样我们把船驶出了约三海里，然后就把船停下，好像又要准备捕鱼似的。我把舵交给摩尔小孩，自己向船头摩尔人站的地方走去。我弯下腰来，装作好像在他身后找什么东西似的。突然，我趁其不备，用手臂猛地在他裤裆下一撞，把他一下推入海里。这个摩尔人是个游泳高手，一下子就浮出海面。他向我呼救，求我让他上船，并说他愿追随我走遍天涯海角。他在水里像鱼，游得极快，而这时风不大，小船行驶速度很慢，眼看他很快就会赶上来。我走进船舱，拿起一支鸟枪。我把枪对准了摩尔人，并对他说我并没想伤害他，如果他不胡闹，也不会伤害他。我说：&你泅水泅得很好，你完全可以泅回岸去。现在海上风平浪静，就赶快泅回去吧。我是不会伤害你的。要是你靠近我的船，那我就打穿你的脑袋！我已决心逃跑争取自由了！&他立即转身向海岸方向游回去。我毫不怀疑，他必然能安抵海岸，因为他游泳的本领确实不赖。

After we had fisht some time and catcht nothing, for when I had Fish on my Hook, I would not pull them up, that he might not see them; I said to the Moor, this will not do, our Master will not be thus serv'd, we must stand farther off: He thinking no harm agreed, and being in the head of the Boat set the Sails; and as I had the Helm I run she Boat out near a League farther, and then brought her too as if I would fish; when giving the Boy the Helm, I stept forward to where the Moor was, and making as if I stoopt for something behind him, I took him by Surprize with my Arm under his Twist, and tost him clear over-board into the Sea; he rise immediately, for he swam like a Cork, and call'd to me, begg'd to be taken in, told me he would go all over the World with me; he swam so strong after the oat that he would have reacht me very quickly, there being but little Wind; upon which I stept into the Cabbin and fetching one of the Fowling-pieces, I presented it at him, and told him, I had done him no hurt, and if he would be quiet I would do him none; but said I, you swim well enough to reach to the Shoar, and the Sea is calm, make the est of your Way to Shoar and I will do you no harm, but if you come near the Boat I'll shoot you thro' the Head; for I'm resolved to have my Liberty; so he turn'd himself about and swam for the Shoar, and I make no doubt but he reacht it with Ease, for he was an Excellent Swimmer.

我们钓了一会儿鱼，一条也没有钓到；因为即使鱼儿上钩，我也不钓上来，免得让那摩尔人看见。然后，我对他说，这样下去可不行，我们拿什么款待主人呢？我们得走远一点。他一想这样做也无妨，就同意了。他在船头，就张起了帆；我在船尾掌舵。就这样我们把船驶出了约三海里，然后就把船停下，好像又要准备捕鱼似的。我把舵交给摩尔小孩，自己向船头摩尔人站的地方走去。我弯下腰来，装作好像在他身后找什么东西似的。突然，我趁其不备，用手臂猛地在他裤裆下一撞，把他一下推入海里。这个摩尔人是个游泳高手，一下子就浮出海面。他向我呼救，求我让他上船，并说他愿追随我走遍天涯海角。他在水里像鱼，游得极快，而这时风不大，小船行驶速度很慢，眼看他很快就会赶上来。我走进船舱，拿起一支鸟枪。我把枪对准了摩尔人，并对他说我并没想伤害他，如果他不胡闹，也不会伤害他。我说：&你泅水泅得很好，你完全可以泅回岸去。现在海上风平浪静，就赶快泅回去吧。我是不会伤害你的。要是你靠近我的船，那我就打穿你的脑袋！我已决心逃跑争取自由了！&他立即转身向海岸方向游回去。我毫不怀疑，他必然能安抵海岸，因为他游泳的本领确实不赖。

I am a wilful child perhaps My mother was spoiled child I wayward I hope Every moment As beautiful as crayons I hope The white paper in love can draw Draw clumsy freedom Draw a never Tears in eyes Sky A sky plumage and leaves A green night and apples I want to paint in the morning Under the picture Can see the smile Under the picture all the young No pain of love She hadn't seen clouds Her eyes are clear color She looked at me forever Forever, watching Never suddenly fell away I want to paint distant scenery Under the picture of the horizon and the water is clear Painted many happy river Under the picture Lightly covered with fluff I let them get very close Let them fall in love Let each one Each a silent spring throb Have become a little birthday I also want to paint in the future I haven't seen her, it is impossible But know that she is very beautiful I painted her coat of autumn Under the burning candle painting and maple leaf Painted many because love her And out of the heart Under the picture Draw a woke up early The glass wrappers above And the fairy tales illustrations I am a wilful child I want to wipe away all the unfortunate I think in the earth Painted with Windows Let all habits dark eyes All light I want to paint surface Draw a frame under a higher than the mountains Draw down the Orient Under the picture A voice of limitless Finally, in the paper Angle I also want to paint Draw a koala He sat on the dark jungle in Victoria Sit quietly branches Become speechless He had no home No one in the distance He only, many The same dream. Berries And a big, big eyes I hope think But I wonder why I didn't receive crayons Don't get a color moment I only have me My fingers and trauma Only the pieces Love her Let them go looking for a butterfly Let them vanish from today I was a child A mother is spoiled child fantasies I wayward

我是一个任性的孩子也许我是被妈妈宠坏的孩子我任性我希望每一个时刻都像彩色蜡笔那样美丽我希望能在心爱的白纸上画画画出笨拙的自由画下一只永远不会流泪的眼睛一片天空一片属于天空的羽毛和树叶一个淡绿的夜晚和苹果我想画下早晨画下露水所能看见的微笑画下所有最年轻的没有痛苦的爱情她没有见过阴云她的眼睛是晴空的颜色她永远看着我永远，看着绝不会忽然掉过头去我想画下遥远的风景画下清晰的地平线和水波画下许许多多快乐的小河画下丘陵长满淡淡的绒毛我让它们挨得很近让它们相爱让每一个默许每一阵静静的春天悸动都成为一朵小花的生日我还想画下未来我没见过她，也不可能但知道她很美我画下她秋天的风衣画下那些燃烧的烛火和枫叶画下许多因为爱她而熄灭的心画下婚礼画下一个个早早醒来的节日上面贴着玻璃糖纸和北方童话的插图我是一个任性的孩子我想擦去一切不幸我想在大地上画满窗子让所有习惯黑暗的眼睛都习惯光明我想画下风画下一架比一架更高大的山岭画下来东方民族的渴望画下大海无边无际愉快的声音最后，在纸角上我还想画下自己画下一只树熊他坐在维多利亚深色的丛林里坐在安安静静的树枝上发愣他没有家没有一颗留在远处的心他只有，许许多多浆果一样的梦和很大很大的眼睛我在希望在想但不知为什么我没有领到蜡笔没有得到一个彩色的时刻我只有我我的手指和创痛只有撕碎那一张张心爱的白纸让它们去寻找蝴蝶让它们从今天消失我是一个孩子一个被幻想妈妈宠坏的孩子我任性

Key Scriptures for me are Ezekiel 39.6 which talks about FIRE being sent upon Gog and Magog and upon those who are dwelling IN THE COASTLANDS in safety and REVELATION 18:4 where the FALL OF BABYLON THE GREAT is referred to and God says get out of her my people, if you do no want to share with her in her sins, and if you do not want to want to receive part of her plagues.

&关键经文是以西结对我所讲的火灾39.6经送经、加纳、magog那些住在该coastlands在那里安全和启示18：4秋季大巴比伦是指上帝说，&我走出她的人如果你没有想分享她罪孽，而如果你不想害她想要得到一部分。

For a big chunk of credit-card losses; the number of filings (and thus charge-off rates) would be rising again, whether

年美国个人破产法的一个改动使得破产登记急速下降，而后引起了信用卡大规模的亏损。

Eph. 4:23 And that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind

弗四23 而在你们心思的灵里得以更新