The last ten days have been a motherfucker, 在过去的十天是一个混蛋，

I didn’t know if I’d survive 我不知道如果我生存

   

The voice with the synapse that calls blood bats into action has now entered the tablelands 与突触调用血蝙蝠转化为行动的声音，现在已经进入了高原

It’s only natural to feel a little imbalanced, it’s a symptom of your hysterical need to be understood 这是很自然的觉得有点不平衡，这是可以理解你的需要歇斯底里的症状

   

You had to forgive your enemy cause it was making you psychotic to keep fighting him inside of your head 你必须原谅你的敌人，因为它是让你精神继续战斗了他的脑海里

But how could you allow these people whom you don’t even respect to rape your self concept and make your inner world an ugliness? 但是，你怎么可能让这些人谁，你甚至不尊重强奸你的自我概念，让你的内心世界的丑陋？

   

Thrashed through the forest like a tormented brute, I had to make myself a monster just to feel something ugly enough to be true 穿过森林就像一个野蛮折磨惨败，我不得不让自己一个怪物只是觉得东西不够丑是真实的

And then scratching wildly at the mirror in my heart to see their doleful faces 然后疯狂地抓挠，在镜子中的我的心脏，看看他们的悲伤面孔

What is the flaw in just running away? Running away fixes everything, how can I why should I stay? Just to view the triumph of disintegration? 什么是刚刚逃跑的缺陷？逃跑修复一切，我怎么能我为什么要留下来？只需查看解体的胜利？

   

To live beneath language, or far above, it’s really not that different 活的语言之下，还是远远高于，这真的没有什么不同

At least now that the one thing that is good about me has begun to express itself in malicious ways 至少现在有一件事是好的对我已经开始表达自己的恶意方式

   

Thrashed through the forest like a tormented brute, I had to make myself a monster just to feel something ugly enough to be true 穿过森林就像一个野蛮折磨惨败，我不得不让自己一个怪物只是觉得东西不够丑是真实的

And then scratching wildly at the mirror in my heart to see their doleful faces 然后疯狂地抓挠，在镜子中的我的心脏，看看他们的悲伤面孔

What is the flaw in just running away? Running away fixes everything, how can I why should I stay? Just to see the triumph of disintegration? victories of devastation? 什么是刚刚逃跑的缺陷？逃跑修复一切，我怎么能我为什么要留下来？正好看到解体的胜利？满目疮痍的胜利？