I used to want to take a 我曾经想采取

drill to my head 钻到我的头

Let the pain out of the hole 让痛苦出洞

I used to want to cut the 我曾经想切

veins in my neck 在我的脖子静脉

Cool the blood boiling my 冷却热血沸腾的我

soul 灵魂

When I wondered, why my 当我想知道，为什么我的

daily headaches thundered 每日头痛轰隆隆

Tried to buffer, pushing 试图缓冲，推

down the pain I suffered 下来痛我忍

Mutilated, feeling so 残缺不全的，这样的感觉

humiliated 羞辱

Cannot wash the dirt off 不能洗的污垢

underneath my skin 我的皮肤下面

   

There was a part of me left 有我留下的一部分

far behind 不甘落后

When at the age of five 当在五岁

years old 岁

I had my innocence taken 我有我的清白采取

from me 从我

Emptiness would fill the 空虚将填补

hole 孔

Now a second grader, 现在，一个二年级学生，

thinking why I don't feel 想，为什么我不觉得

better 好

Why I'm filthy, why the hell 为什么我是肮脏的，凭啥

I feel so guilty 我觉得很内疚

When drawing stick men 当绘制棒的男人

of pornographic men and 色情男女

women 女

Thinking all the time 思考所有的时间

there's something wrong 这里有些不对劲

with me 与我一起

   

Everyday for three years 每天三年

from dawn 'til dusk a 从黎明，直到黄昏à

migraine 偏头痛

would take me and break me 会带我和我分手

And it'd cripple me so 它会削弱我这么

much that 多，

In dreams, it'd seem, with 在梦中，它会显得与

a hole in my temple 在我的太阳穴孔

that I could probably make 我大概可以做

my headaches finally go 我的头痛终于走

away 客场

   

Trephination 锥颅

Trephination 锥颅

The enemy inside of me 我内心的敌人

won't let me free 不会让我自由

wants me to bleed 要我流血

   

And after three years now 现在经过三年

my headaches wear off 我头痛穿脱

For reasons not quite to 至于原因，不完全以

me known 我知

The acupuncture needles 针灸针

sticking my skin 坚持我的皮肤

Pushed them down as far 推下来就

as they'd go 因为他们会去

But now I'm older and now 但现在我年纪大，现在

inside my anger smolders 在我的怒气闷烧

from depression, to fighting 抑郁症，战斗

Taking out my vengeance 以我的复仇

Consequences, now I'd 结果，现在我

question during sex if ... 如果做爱过程中的问题...

Is this how it fucking feels 这是怎么了他妈的感觉

or am I faking it ? 还是我装病？

   

No longer the child that 不再是孩子了

you left there at the bart 你离开了那里在巴特

tracks 轨道

I'm now at 17, left in an 我现在17 ，留在一个

empty blackness 空的黑暗

On drugs, with thugs, and 上药，有暴徒，并

thinking "Goddamn ?" 想“该死？ ”

I'm ending up in a failure, 我结束了一个失败，

in the gutter passed out 在阴沟里晕倒了

   

Trephination 锥颅

Trephination 锥颅

This enemy inside of me 这个敌人在我心里

won't let me free 不会让我自由

wants me to bleed 要我流血

   

Now I'm older and in this 现在我年纪大，在这

man an anger smolders 男人的怒气闷烧

Now I'm thinking a hole in 现在，我想在一个洞

you is what I'm seeing 你是我所看到的

Your depression, is the 你的抑郁症，是

dent I kick in you in 凹痕我踢的你

vengeance 复仇

Consequences are the pain 后果是痛苦

I'd give to you 我给你

   

I know that I'm dreaming, 我知道，我是在做梦，

but in this dream I go in 但这个梦想，我去的

go through it, and end it 通过它，结束它

And though I'd never do it 虽然我从来没有做到这一点

I'm killing you, hand on 我杀了你，把手放在

the trigger - pull it 扳机 - 拉

Your final thought'll be a 您的最终thoughtll是

bullet in your fuckin' head 子弹在你他妈的头

   

Trephination 锥颅

Trephination 锥颅

This enemy inside of me 这个敌人在我心里

I'm now killing 我现在杀

to make me free. 让我自由。