Staring at the walls to pass the time. 盯着墙壁来打发时间。

Pinch myself make sure I'm still alive. 掐自己确定我还活着。

I'm not alright. 我就不行了。

It's become a disguise. 它已经成为一种伪装。

Friends and family, I'm losing all ties. 朋友和家人，我失去了一切联系。

Staring at the walls to pass the time. 盯着墙壁来打发时间。

Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive. 掐一下自己;确保我还活着。

I've been here before. 我已经来过这里。

I will survive another month under gray skies. 我一个月存活下灰色的天空。

I'm holding on as a tight as I can. 我持有的紧，我可以。

The monotony never seems to end. 单调似乎永远不会结束。

Every day feels the same. 每一天的感觉是一样的。

Every day I think about the place I'd rather be than here. 我每天思考的地方，我宁愿比这里。

I've been here before. 我已经来过这里。

I will survive another month under these grey skies. 我一个月存活在这些灰色的天空。

We've carried each other through and over the seas. 我们已经进行相互境而过海洋。

We live for nights like this. 我们生活在这样的夜晚。

The ones we won't forget. I hope to open my eyes to see this picture. 那些我们不会忘记。我希望睁开眼睛看到这个画面。

I'm throwing it all away. I hope to open my eyes to see this moment that I should treasure forever. 我扔了这一切。我希望睁开眼睛，看看这个时刻，我要珍惜，直到永远。

Staring at the walls to pass the time. 盯着墙壁来打发时间。

Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive. 掐一下自己;确保我还活着。

I'm not alright. 我就不行了。

It's become a disguise. 它已经成为一种伪装。

Friends and family, I'm losing all ties. 朋友和家人，我失去了一切联系。

I'm holding on as tight as I can. 我抱着紧张，因为我可以。

Coming home, I don't know when. 回家，我不知道什么时候。

I'm holding on as tight as I can. 我抱着紧张，因为我可以。

I swear. 我发誓。

My dearest love, I woke up tired today, even more so than yesterday. 我最亲爱的爱人，我今天太累了，甚至比昨天醒了。

How that's possible, I don't even know, nor do I want to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way. 如何可能的话，我什至不知道，我也不想要。这是很难找到的动机，当你这样倒掉。我全身酸痛，但我已经习惯了这种感觉的方式。

Seventeen down, seventeen to go. 十七岁了， 17去。

That's not so bad, right? 这不是那么糟糕，不是吗？

I think of home often and of you even more. 我想回家常常你，甚至更多。

Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two. 昨天我看到了阳光照耀。这只是两个后出现了几分钟。

For a moment I found myself smiling, as if those short rays of light were enough to get me by. 有那么一刻，我发现自己面带微笑，仿佛光的短射线是不够用得到我。

Maybe that was enough. 也许这就够了。

Thank God, I needed that. 感谢上帝，我需要的。

I surely needed that. 当然，我需要的。