For hearing all my doubts so selectively and 听力我都怀疑如此选择性地

For continuing my numbing love endlessly. 继续我麻木的爱不休。

For helping you and myself: not even considering 为了帮助你和我：也不考虑

For beating myself up and over functioning. 对于击败自己了以上运行。

   

To whom do I owe the biggest apology? 对谁我欠的最大道歉？

No one's been crueller than I've been to me. 没有人是残酷的，比我去过的我。

   

For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable 为了让你决定，如果我真的是可取的

For myself love being so embarrassingly conditional. 对于自己的爱是如此尴尬的条件。

And for denying myself to somehow make us compatible 并否认自己以某种方式让我们兼容

And for trying to fit a rectangle into a ball. 并试图将一个矩形进了一个球。

   

And 和

To whom do I owe the biggest apology? 对谁我欠的最大道歉？

No one's been crueller than I've been to me. 没有人是残酷的，比我去过的我。

   

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

My apologies begin here before everybody else. 我道歉，开始在这里所有的人面前。

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

For treating me worse than I would anybody else. 为了治疗我不如我就谁都清楚。

   

For blaming myself for your unhappiness 对于指责自己为你的不快乐

And for my impatience when I was perfect where I was. 和我不耐烦时，我是完美的，我是。

Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready, 不顾一切，我还没有准备好迹象，

And expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be. 并期望自己是在哪里，你要我可以。

   

To whom do I owe the first apology? 对谁我欠第一的道歉吗？

No one's been crueller than I've been to me. 没有人是残酷的，比我去过的我。

   

And 和

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

My apologies begin here before everybody else. 我道歉，开始在这里所有的人面前。

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

For treating me worse than I would anybody else. 为了治疗我不如我就谁都清楚。

   

Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ? 嗯，我不知道这是犯罪的最大？

Forgetting you or forgetting myself... 忘记你或者忘记自己...

Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter, 如果我听从了后者的智慧，

I would've naturally loved the former. 我已经自然喜欢前者。

   

For ignoring you: my highest voices. 不理你：我的最高声音。

For smiling when my strife was all too obvious. 对于微笑时我的内乱是太明显了。

For being so disassociated from my body, 对于正在所以从我的身体的关联，

And for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing. 而对于不放手时，它会一直最善良的东西。

   

To whom do I owe the biggest apology? 对谁我欠的最大道歉？

No one's been crueler than I've been to me. 没有人被残酷比我去过我。

   

And 和

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

My apologies begin here before everybody else 我道歉，开始在这里所有的人之前，

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

For treating me worse than I would anybody else. 为了治疗我不如我就谁都清楚。

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

My apologies begin here before everybody else 我道歉，开始在这里所有的人之前，

I'm sorry to myself. 对不起我自己。

For treating me worse than I would anybody else 为了治疗我不如我会别人