Return To Self Loathing

sick of the way i am feeling. waking up watching myself slipping. should i just take out my eyes? no longer want them for this life. acting strong only on the outside. hiding shame and pain on the inside. i've tried to block my mind of this and pretend is doesn't exist. loosing my mind once again. stranding my thoughts (no matter what i said). sleepless nights staring at the ceiling. sanity running on empty. try to block my mind of this and pretend it doesn't exist. loosing my mind once again. stranding my thoughts (no matter what i said). taken for granted again. stranding my thoughts no matter what i said. loosing my mind again. stranded my thoughts no matter what i said. loosing my mind once again. stranding my thoughts no matter what i said. 生病的样子，我的感觉。醒来看着自己滑倒。我应该把我的眼睛吗？不再需要他们这样的生活。仅在外部作用强。隐藏的耻辱和痛苦在里面。我试图阻止这我的心，假装是不存在的。再次失去我的脑海。搁浅了我的想法（不管我说的） 。废寝忘食地盯着天花板。在空运行的理智。试图阻止这我的心，假装它不存在。再次失去我的脑海。搁浅了我的想法（不管我说的） 。采取再理所当然的。搁浅了我的想法，不管我说什么。再次失去我的脑海。搁浅了我的想法，不管我说什么。再次失去我的脑海。搁浅了我的想法，不管我说什么。