[Intro:] [简介： ]

Now, this might get a little personal 现在，这可能会有点个人

Or a lot actually 其实还是很多

Parental discretion is advised 家长自行决定建议

   

When I was ten, shit, I believed I could fly 当我10岁的狗屎，我相信我能飞

I would just flap my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky 我只想拍打我他妈的怀里，并尽量满足与天空

And in my mind I'd envision that I was speaking with God 在我的心目中，我会想象我是讲神

And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine 然后我会砍他他妈的拳头关闭，打他与我

But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind 但是，这是战争的人和我一样只是一个他妈的部分

So I'm a take you fuckers back and through the vortex of time 所以，我是把你不要脸回来，经过时间的漩涡

When I was seven envision me at the bottom of stairs 我七岁的时候想象我在楼梯的底部

And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no fallacy here 我庄严宣誓，这是实话，这里没有谬误

See I was young, man, I was just a toddler, a kid 见我年轻的时候，男人，我只是一个小孩，一个孩子

And he wasn't the first to successfully try but he did 他不是第一个成功尝试，但他做到了

He took me to the basement and after the lights had been cut 他把我带到地下室，灯光被切断后，

He whipped it out and sodomized and forced his cock through my gut 他鞭打出去，鸡奸，并通过我的直觉迫使他的阴茎

   

See it was weird because I felt like I was losing my mind 看到这件事很奇怪，因为我觉得我失去了我的心

And then it happened like it happened millions of times 然后它发生像它发生数百万次

And I would swear that I would tell but they would think that I was lyin' 我发誓，我会告诉他们，但会以为我是在胡扯

And now the power that he held was like a beacon of mine 而现在，他持有的力量是像我这样的一盏明灯

So now I got used to it, I put up with the shit 所以，现在我习惯了，我忍了狗屎

And now my hate was so volcanically eruptive and shit 现在我的仇恨是如此的火山喷发和狗屎

But this is nothing cause I guess he told his friend what he do 但是，这是什么原因我猜，他告诉他的朋友他做

And they ate it up, shit I was like a buffet for two 他们吃了起来，狗屎我就像自助餐两

   

And then it happened in a home where every fucking one knew 然后它发生在一个家庭，每一个他妈的人知道

And they ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth 他们是不会做的狗屎，但他妈的责怪青年

I'm sorry mom but I really used to blame it on you, but even you, by then wouldn't know what to do 对不起妈妈，但我真的来责怪你，但即使你，那时不知道该怎么办

   

And now it happened so often that he was getting particular 而现在它发生如此频繁，他特别得到

And I'm more scared every time - my speed and ventricular 而我更害怕每一次 - 我的速度和室

One night he came home and I was asleep in my bed 一天晚上，他回到家，我睡着了我的床

He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my legs 他爬在我上面，并强迫自己我的双腿之间

He told me: "Hey -, I see you like them popsicle sticks so put your mouth on my deck and fucking swallow the spit" 他告诉我：“喂 - ，我看你像他们一样冰棒棍所以把你的嘴在我的甲板和他妈的吞吐”

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he said 我很困惑，但让我做了什么，他说我很害怕

I had no the effect it would have on my head 我没有影响它会对我的头

My heart was pumping it was thumping with like tons of my fear 我的心脏被抽它重创了我的恐惧像吨

Imagine being seven and seeing cum in your underwear 想象一下，七个暨看到你的内衣

I know it's nasty but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt 我知道这是讨厌的，但有时我会甚至从我的屁股流血

Disgusting right? Now let that feeling ring through your guts 恶心吧？现在，让我们这样的感觉环通过你的胆量

   

I thought of offing myself, I thought of killing these niggas 我以为海上我自己，我想杀死这些黑鬼

Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they teeth through they liver 想通过他们的肝脏采取他妈的砖和推动他们的牙齿

Wanted to smash the fucking world and burn it's leftover parts 要打破他妈的世界，燃烧它的剩余部分

Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart 想撕了，只是他妈的在我心脏的步骤

   

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the reach of these men 后来我长大了，我是不是在这些人的范围

But that didn't keep me out the motherfucking reach of my sin 但是，这并没有让我出我的罪他妈的范围

And psychologically I was just as fucked as they come 上和心理上，我只是作为性交，因为他们来

I was confused, I had to prove I wasn't fucked from the jump 我很困惑，我必须证明我是不是从跳跃性交

I was afraid of myself, I had no love for myself 我怕我自己，我没有爱自己

I tried to kill, I tried to hide, I tried to run from myself 我想杀人，我试图隐瞒，我想从我自己跑

There was a point in my life where I didn't like who I was 这里是我人生的一个点，我不喜欢我是谁

So I'd create the other people I would try to become 所以我创建了其他人，我会努力成为

Sexuality came into play and with as scared as I was 性欲来发挥作用，以作为吓我

I was extremely scared of men so I started liking girls 我非常害怕这样的人，我就开始喜欢女孩

I started starving myself, fucked up my bodily health 我开始饿自己，搞砸了我的身体健康

I didn't wanna be attracted to nobody else 我不希望被吸引到别人

I didn't want the appeal, wanted to stunt my own growth 我不想上诉，希望阻碍自己的成长

But there's a fucking reason behind every scar that I show 但还有每次我展示伤疤背后他妈的理由

I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I grow 我从来没有要孩子，这样的，据我成长

My mental state is out of date, and that's as far as I know 我的精神状态已经过时，这是因为据我所知

   

My biggest problem was fear, and what being fearful could do 我最大的问题是恐惧，什么是可怕的可以做

It made me run, it made me hide it made me scared of the truth 这让我跑，这让我躲它让我害怕的真相

I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the same anymore 我不是走火入魔了，我不一样了

I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the same as before 我的意思是我很理智，但我疯了，但没有像以前一样

I had to deal with my shit, I had to look at my truth 我不得不面对我的屎，我看我的真心话

To understand that to grow you've got to look at your root 据了解，成长，你得看你的根

I had to cut off the dead, I had to make myself proud 我不得不切断死了，我不得不让自己感到骄傲

And now I'm just standing living breathing proof look at me now 现在我只是站在客厅的呼吸证明再看我一眼吧

I made it through everything, I made you look like a clown 我经历的一切成功了，我让你看起来像个小丑

I'm fucking great can't fucking hate you nigga look at me now 我他妈的伟大的，现在不能他妈的恨你对我的兄弟们看看

   

Now I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way from the ground 现在，我只是说这跟你有办法从地面

   

Just be strong and just move on and just accept what I can 只是坚强和正义之举，只是接受我所能

Because it makes your story better when you read at the end 因为它使你的故事更好，当你在阅读结束

   

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Yeah, there's a story behind every single scar that I show 是啊，还有就是我展现每一个伤疤背后都有一个故事

I made it out, this a me nobody's gotten before 我做出来，这是一个我没人面前得到

I had to open my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it 我打开我的伤口，我不得不流血，直到我停止了它

Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet 谢谢你在这里加入我为我清理我的衣柜

I said I opened my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it 我说我开了我的伤口，我不得不流血，直到我停止了它

Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet 谢谢你在这里加入我为我清理我的衣柜